Out Of My Body (3)

The antibiotic the doctor had given me was causing me a lot of intestinal problems and I was feeling weak. One morning I got up from my bed and I felt weird. I felt my face funny so I went to the mirror and I noticed my mouth was twisted to the side. My left eye couldn't wink nor close. I became hysterical and rushed to the hospital. The doctor said I had a facial paralysis and prescribed me a series of injections and sent me for facial therapy. I had all my shots and I started my facial therapy which it was the application of electrical mini shocks to my face in order to bring the nerve movement back.

My family doctor said that the facial nerve had died and my face was going to stay like that for the rest of my life. I was only 26 years old and I felt this was the end of the world for me. By the end of my facial therapy I was experiencing some kind of weird dizziness. I felt as if little by little I was entering into a different dimension. It was horrible. When I was outside the house I saw as if the trees and the clouds were very low and about to fall on me. Inside the house I saw as if the walls and the ceiling were falling on me. I started losing my memory. I didn't know if I fed my kids and the baby. I cried asking God to at least let me know if I had fed my children and specially the baby. My skin turned yellowish. My family and people in the neighborhood -I found out later- were expecting my death. I was getting weaker and weaker each day.

One night I felt such a strong weakness I knew I was very close to die. I put my children to sleep and I lied down next to my 5 year old little man. He had helped me so much during my ordeal. If I was going to die I wanted it to be close to him. I wrapped my arm around him and I started to call God's name . I said "Jehovah I want to die saying your name." I didn't mention Jesus Christ because I didn't believe in Him yet. With my out of the body experience I learned I was a spirit inside a body but I had not believed in Jesus Christ in other way but a created god inferior to the Father. I woke up in the morning even weaker.

I got up and my breathing was so heavy and my legs so weak that I realized death was approaching me. I walked away from the bedroom and I fell on the floor. My breathing was heavy and I had a weird coldness inside my bones. I thought, "I'm dying, my kids are going to be left orphans."